Yay! puasa over but i want ramadan again. i miss it already all the patience that kept us from killing each other and new and old friendships reunited. i love ramadan! but another month passes and syawal is here. selamat hari raya to all my friend no matter who you are maaf zahir dan batin. it's like a new year has started for me.

yes mum's side without me bibik ita, hazimah and pa man oth.

well update i think i'm starting to hate someone and its not normal i rarely hate people. and i don't know whether i'm being used or whatever but really i need to go back to some place and remeber how i started my life. i need to wake up and stop wanting it to be like how it was with amanda. she was it the greatest period of my life. i miss her so much. i want that smile and laughter i used to have when i knew what was real and what was fake and how i knew how to balance everything in my life. i want lesser drama in my life more drama on screen. i wish that, that person i'm refering to was never ever in my life now that person is no deep in my life even if i want -- out i'll have to take a lot off effort. and i need eslyn to help me stop my habit. you know i know. and eqa i know you miss him, i miss him too. kai ling i know you miss him, i miss him too we have to stay together if we want it to suceed.